I Accidentally Found Out the Name of My Baby’s ‘Anonymous’ Bio Father – Now I’m Terrified

It was supposed to be a normal Tuesday morning. Adam and I were in the kitchen, doing our usual dance around each other as we got ready for work.

He was at the stove, flipping pancakes like some kind of breakfast ninja, while I poured coffee into our matching mugs.

“You nervous about today?” Adam asked, sliding a plate of golden pancakes in front of me.

I shrugged, trying to play it cool. “Nah, it’s just paperwork, right? Sign on the dotted line, and boom—we’re one step closer to being parents.”

Adam grinned, that adorable lopsided smile that still made my heart do a little flip after all these years.

“I can’t wait,” he said, leaning in to plant a syrupy kiss on my cheek.

I laughed, pushing him away playfully. “Gross! You’re like a big, bearded maple tree.”

As I wiped the sticky kiss off my face, I caught Adam’s eye. There was so much love there, so much excitement for our future.

We’d been trying to start a family for a while now, and this anonymous donor program felt like our golden ticket.

If only I knew then how wrong I was.

The fertility clinic waiting room was like something out of a sci-fi movie. All sleek white surfaces and soothing music, with a giant fish tank that I’m pretty sure was there just to hypnotize anxious patients into a state of calm.

I was fiddling with my phone, half-heartedly scrolling through social media, when I heard the receptionist call my name.

“Joan? We’re ready for you.”

I stood up, smoothing down my shirt and plastering on my best “I’m totally cool with all of this” smile. The receptionist, a perky blonde whose name tag read “Cindy,” waved me over to her desk.

“Alright, hon, I just need you to sign these forms here, here, and… oh, shoot!”

Cindy’s elbow knocked into her mouse, and suddenly the computer screen in front of her lit up. And that’s when I saw it. A face I thought I’d never see again, staring back at me from a donor profile.

Mark.

The room started to spin. I gripped the edge of the desk, my knuckles turning white. It couldn’t be. It had to be a mistake. But there he was, those dark eyes I used to get lost in, that crooked smile that once made my knees weak.

“Ms. Walker? Are you alright?” Cindy’s voice sounded far away, like I was underwater.

“No…” I stepped back, panic spreading through me like fire. “I… uh, I’m feeling so dizzy all of a sudden. I think… I’ll be right back.”

I practically ran to the bathroom. Locking myself in a stall, I slid down to the floor, my head in my hands.

Mark. My ex. The man who’d torn my heart to shreds and stomped on the pieces. The one who’d made me feel small, worthless, afraid.

And now, by some twisted joke of the universe, he was our donor.

Memories came flooding back, sharp and painful. The constant criticism and accusations, and the way he’d fly into a rage over the smallest things. The crash of porcelain and the thump of his fists hitting the drywall that always accompanied those rages.

I couldn’t breathe. I’d worked so hard to cut him out of me, to erase the fear he infected me with, but it all came rushing back now.

I don’t know how long I sat there, shaking and trying not to throw up as the memories consumed me. But eventually, I pulled myself together by focusing on the night I finally left.

I’d waited until he fell asleep, then slipped out with nothing but a backpack and the clothes on my back. I ran to the bus station, looking over my shoulder the whole way. I didn’t relax until the bus crossed state lines.

Mark was supposed to be out of my life for good, but now he was back.

What was I going to do about it? I couldn’t hide in this bathroom forever and the thought of having his child… oh God.

I rolled to my feet, splashed some water on my face, and looked at my reflection.

“Get a grip, Joan,” I said. “You need to do what you came her to do, and get yourself home. Then, you can fall apart.”

And with that, I let out a sharp breath and squared my shoulders.

I still felt like I might fall apart any minute, but there was no way I was going to be the weirdo having a panic attack in the fertility clinic bathrooms. I marched back out to the waiting room with a level of fake confidence that would’ve made my old therapist proud.

“Everything okay?” Cindy asked, concern etched on her face.

I nodded, not trusting myself to speak. Somehow, I managed to sign the papers, my signature a shaky scrawl that looked nothing like my usual neat script.

The drive home was a blur. My mind was racing, trying to figure out what to do. Should I tell Adam? The thought made my stomach churn. What if he wanted to back out? What if he thought I’d known all along? What if…

I pulled into our driveway, my hands shaking as I turned off the engine. Through the window, I could see Adam in the living room, probably working from home like he often did. He looked up as I got out of the car, his face breaking into that warm smile I loved so much.

And in that moment, I made a decision.

I couldn’t tell him. I couldn’t risk losing everything we’d built together, this beautiful life full of love and trust. Mark was in the past. He didn’t matter anymore. This baby would be ours, mine and Adam’s, and that’s all that mattered.

I took a deep breath, plastered on a smile, and walked into the house.

“Hey, babe!” Adam called out. “How’d it go?”

I forced a laugh, hoping it didn’t sound as hollow as it felt. “Oh, you know. Boring paperwork stuff. Nothing exciting.”

Adam came over and wrapped me in a bear hug. “One step closer, huh? I can’t wait to meet our little peanut.”

I hugged him back, burying my face in his chest so he couldn’t see the tears welling up in my eyes. “Yeah,” I whispered. “Me too.”

As the days turned into weeks, I tried to push the knowledge of Mark’s involvement to the back of my mind. But it was always there, lurking like a shadow. I’d wake up in cold sweats, dreams of Mark haunting my sleep.

During the day, I’d catch myself zoning out, lost in memories I thought I’d buried years ago.

Adam noticed, of course. How could he not? I was jumpier, more distant. I’d snap at him over little things, then feel guilty and smother him with affection. It was like walking a tightrope, trying to act normal while feeling like I was falling apart inside.

One night, about a month after that fateful day at the clinic, Adam and I were having dinner. I was pushing my food around my plate, not really eating, when Adam put down his fork with a sigh.

“Joan, what’s going on?” he asked, his voice soft but firm.

I looked up, startled. “What do you mean?”

“Come on, don’t play dumb. You’ve been acting weird ever since that day at the clinic. Did something happen? Is there a problem with the pregnancy?”

I could feel panic rising in my chest. This was it. The moment I’d been dreading. I opened my mouth, ready to spill everything, to beg for forgiveness, to—

“No!” I said, my voice coming out sharper than I intended.

“Everything’s fine. I’m just… stressed. You know, with work and all the baby stuff. It’s a lot to handle.”

Adam’s brow furrowed. He reached across the table, taking my hand in his. “Honey, you know you can talk to me about anything, right? We’re in this together.”

I nodded, guilt churning in my stomach. “I know. I’m sorry, I just… I guess I’m more overwhelmed than I thought I’d be.”

Adam squeezed my hand, his eyes full of concern and love.

“Maybe you should talk to someone. A therapist or counselor. It might help to have an outside perspective.”

I forced a smile, even as I felt my heart breaking. “Yeah, maybe you’re right. I’ll look into it.”

As I lay in bed that night, unable to sleep, I couldn’t help but wonder: What would you do in my shoes? How do you choose between protecting the person you love and being honest with them? Is there a right answer, or am I doomed no matter what I do?

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